Talk:Hypnophobia/@comment-42.61.177.101-20180610085010/@comment-76.111.151.248-20190417222141

Hello, same teenaged depressed, anxious, hypnophobic Catholic here. I know what God gave me very well, and I love him just as much as you do, whether you're Catholic or not. He created our beautiful world and me and you. And sleep. And cats, dogs, and spiders, which people still manage to be afraid of because everyone's afraid of something. I must ask you not to remove the hypnophobic splinters in our eyes without first removing the judgemental log in your own if you love God, because only God can judge his creation.

Now I am stern enough tell you my intrusive thoughts that prevent me from sleeping. A girl bullied me by telling me obscenites and to kill myself every day, making fun of my Chinese friend, disrespecting a funeral (I also went  to a Catholic school), and worst of all, whenever we said grace, thanked the devil loudly for everyone's attention. Her words repeat in my head every day. I NEVER want to do the same thing she did. I can't stop thinking about her words because they are always there no matter how hard I try to get rid of them. I don't want them in my head, but they won't leave. I don't want to say it. Ever. But my anxiety says it for me so it looks like I'm saying it. So what causes me to fear sleep is the fear of losing control over my own body and what my anxiety will say in my sleep. Stupid? Maybe, but it's not as stupid as going on a site about hypnophobia and judging us hypnophobes or calling our fears rubbish, because if you're not a part of the solution, don't be a part of our problem, please.