Talk:Thanatophobia/@comment-211.26.124.243-20190726075752

Yeah... I'm TERRIFIED of death. Ugh! Sometimes I just wish that the universe or whatever didn't create all of this. Seems so pointless and yet people still reproduce, it's frustrating really. Why bother? Your just going to bring them into a painful existence. They'll suffer too, isn't it best to just not reproduce? I don't want anyone or anything to suffer and die. But then again, on the bright side of things, at least we get to experience some positive things that would only be possible if we're alive... Like, we can experience the pleasure of looking at nature, trees, grass, flowers, ect. Animals, cats, dogs. We can eat yummy food and drinks, play games, coffee.

Lots of good things in life. It's hard for me though, I've been suffering from this fear for a long time now and it's gotten worse since 2017. Right now in my head I'm saying to myself "It's not fair!" That's how I feel about this. But it's not that it's fair or not, it just is, but still... I do hope to be happy one day. I also want to (but I don't want to but...) Die at a young age just so I can avoid growing older. I was thinking that maybe I want to die at around 25, 28, 30 years old? Currently I'm 23 (unfortunately) so I'll have to quickly try and accomplish some of my dream goals.

I also daydream about myself getting into an accident where it's fatal, or someone killing me. I also wish that I could swap spots with a deceased person or animal. It's painful to have these thoughts. It kills everything joyful, leaving you in total despair... Not sure what else to say but just try looking for the positive side of life I guess, try to be grateful for even being allowed to have a life and other things. Try to focus on your own dream goals and passions. As for me, I've "accepted" death, but I don't have to like it, I'm just aware of it, and I hate it with a passion. I try to just focus on fun things to do. Oops! Long text again, sorry about that, I just like to type stuff is all...

Take care...