Talk:Casadastraphobia/@comment-34579272-20180204040948/@comment-108.14.227.21-20180210023110

I'm a pre-med student, and there's a lot to unravel here, but here's my hypothesis, and suggestion. It sounds like the overwhelming stress and grief put your body in a prolonged state of adrenal exhaustion, which is when your body continually releases cortisol into the bloodstream. This has several negative health consequences, one of which is the development of prolonged anxiety. What it sounds like is that you are suffering from a PTSD induced generalized anxiety disorder. One of the things that our minds do not like is fears that have no explanation. There is nothing tangible to fear in your situation -- the damage is done, and you've already experienced loss. So, your mind now has these anxious emotions and nothing to pin it on. This is the source, in some cases, of phobic thinking. Your mind /wants/ to rationalize your fear, so it locks itself onto other, harmless, stimuli, like the vast open sky, which is, itself, intimidating, but not dangerous. As a result, all of this build up anxiety might be putting itself into this phobia you've developed, and now that has become an /additional/ problem on top of your adrenal exhaustion, generalized anxiety, and PTSD. It is my strong recommendation that you seek out a good psychiatrist and psychotherapist. The combination of anxiety controlling medication and talk therapy are /very/ effective at treating anxiety. Your situation has given you a lot to work through, and, sometimes, many times, when something traumatic happens, we get stuck in a mental loop of reminiscing, ruminating, and retreating, and it can happen over and over and over again. This can be hard, if not impossible, to tackle alone from the inside. That is why I strongly recommend you seek out a healthcare professional team specializing in mental medicine. You are a perfect candidate for that type of treatment, and may even respond to talk therapy alone.