Talk:Cacomorphobia/@comment-174.87.135.206-20190709223950

I had a mentally unbalanced, physically/ mentally abusive  mother that was always fat and sweaty. Bloodshot bulging eyes, beet red puffy face, sweaty upper lip, screaming in my face, spewing phlegm and alcohol vapors while beating me. Those are my memories. I get highly turned off when i see a morbidly obese woman. Because I know what is really happening behind closed doors. The mania, the self loathing, the constant eating, the slovenly hygiene. I was constantly walking on eggshells. Constantly wondering when and where i was to get my next beating. Constantly being aware of objects that she would beat me with and hiding them. Multiple blows on my head has made me hate heavy brass belt buckles. At 61 years old I still wake up screaming from nightmares of my mother beating me as a child.